Yesterday’s post has generated more “real world” comments than any I’ve ever posted. I’m grateful for everyone that believes in me and I appreciate the kind words. Every single one of them.
As I embark on this insane journey, I continue to wrestle. There will be a lot of reading. There will be a lot of writing. I’m sure there will be ambiguity to work through. I’m not good with ambiguity.
This journey I’ve been on for seven years now has been full of twists and turns that I never would have imagined. I’ve never been an adrenaline junkie. Yet I keep trying to say “yes” to anything God has for me. Working with authenticity and love with people experience life’s lowest points. A few overseas missions. Soup dinners. Teaching classes. Opening our home to non-family members and doing our best to show them they are family to us. It’s been a wild ride.
And now this. Why? The words of my oldest son’s favorite speech came echoing back to me today.
We choose to go to the moon in this decade and do the other things, not because they are easy, but because they are hard, because that goal will serve to organize and measure the best of our energies and skills, because that challenge is one that we are willing to accept, one we are unwilling to postpone, and one which we intend to win, and the others, too. — John F. Kennedy
Because it is hard. Sometimes that’s the point. When we follow God past the point where we can make it on our own, it forces us to lean on Him. We learn more about Him, and we learn more about ourselves. Unfortunately, we have a tendency to be self-sufficient. We weren’t created to be independent, though. Our souls crave interdependence, even though it’s messy. Even though it’s hard.
We often fool ourselves into believing we want a life of comfort. But comfort doesn’t satisfy us. At best, it satiates us, but only temporarily. We were created to push farther, to dig deeper, and to change the world. We were created to exceed our limits, but not alone. With each other. And with our Creator.
This part of my journey will challenge me. I’m going to need help. The bonds I have with the people in my communities will be tested. I’m sure some of those will break. But some will strengthen. New ones will form as well. Ultimately, it will be beautiful.
My dependence on Christ will be tested, as well. It is one thing to know the right things to say on Sundays when asked. Lingo can be mastered. Attendance at church isn’t an indicator of spiritual depth. Even mission trips can be “successful” while maintaining self-reliance. So it’s important to push past all of that. And so I am.
Where is God calling you that is past your point of comfort? Where is He calling you that is hard? Maybe it’s another country. Maybe it’s someplace closer. But He is calling you to something.